D-day aka Eat My Cake

written by Ava Emasova aka faerielover

I don't even know what date it is. Oh, apparently, according to my computer, it's 28 April 2012. Hello, Time! I didn't see you there, you ran by so quickly.

Aaaanyway. These days I've been discovering some very important truths about myself. Like, for example, how I want to have my cake and eat it too. I get this feeling that life is beautiful and that I can do whatever I want. That kind of hopefulness and euphoria I haven't had in a while. And I decided to go for it. Why keep whining about how out of shape I am, and do nothing about it? Today I went out for a long walk and a run. It was awesome. I also ended up on some swings, enjoying myself immensely. My mp3 was on, of course, and somewhere between my running and quick-walking Lana Del Rey sang in my ears: "Hey, Lolita, hey..." At one point in the song she said -- "I want my cake and I wanna eat it too," and I was like -- she did not just say that, did she? Awesome. And I instantly remembered that gif of Darren Criss saying the same thing. I love those people!

I believe that anything good in life can be accomplished only by first becoming the person that you want to be. Building and perfecting yourself to be that person. I want to be a better person in every possible way. I want to be smarter, to always learn new things. Less judgmental. I want to be open minded. Kind. Fun and relaxed. I want to speak more languages. {Speaking of, I started studying German about a month ago. ^_^} I want to learn how to dance! I want to dance even if I don't know how. And if it takes some work, an actual effort, even better! I don't want to be some lazy loser, just complaining about everything, complaining about the world, while sitting comfortably at home doing nothing to change anything about herself {himself}, let alone the aforementioned world. It's all in the attitude. Instead of the usual: "I want to do this, but I can't," I have a new one -- I CAN DO IT. I'M GONNA DO IT. THANK YOU. BYE.

So, am I a bloody coward? {This is just my inner Ronald Weasley popping up!} Yes? Well then, I'll learn to be brave. Start with small things.

Like bugs. Don't kill bugs or scream when you see one of them. What do you have against them, anyway? {Except that they look kind of ugly.}

Slide down the Cobra pool slide, even though it looks scary when you first climb up. {That turned out to be amazing!}

Don't be so shy. Go to that casting and give it your best shot. Leave your worries behind -- it's supposed to be fun, not scary. And it's not really scary, so why get all flustered about it? {I actually got a small part! :O Yay!}

Jump from a swing. I'm too big to hurt myself that way, anyway. 

Do I want to be a writer? Just start writing and write every day. It's not like you can become a writer any other way. And if it isn't working, or you simply suck, well... at least you tried and that's better than giving up in advance.  

Do I want to make jewelry? Well, search the web for more information, learn what you need to know, find materials that you need, study other people's work. Get started!

I guess what I'm trying to say is -- my new motto is -- JUST DO IT. {Don't whine about it.} And DON'T GIVE UP, NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS SAY, IF IT'S WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOURSELF, WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. {Unless, of course, hurting other people is what makes you happy, in which case just stop, that's not cool.} And I WANT TO HAVE MY CAKE AND EAT IT TOO.

Goodbye for now.

xoxo